Rewind|Replay
Apparently there’s some sort of power outage going on at work which has shut down Outlook (no email) and the network (no work) so…I’m just sitting here at my desk. It’s sort of a funny because everyone who’s in the office today is sitting at their desk, but we all know that none of us could actually be doing any work because the network’s down…but yet we still sit at our desks as if we’ve got things to do.
For my part, I’ve done my daily read of the major dailies with the related sharing via Facebook, Mixx, Digg, Delicious and the newly minted Yahoo! Buzz (I’ve only Buzzed 2 things…but I’m just starting…). But usually this is my routine of things to do right before I launch into my professional duties…but today, there is a palpabe and tangible lack of things to do. But I can’t leave…I just have to sit here, chained to my desk (as it were) until something happens that creates work for me. This is like jail.
As I continue the train of thought that began long ago yet continues its path around my mind…I begin to think of ways that I might be able to rewind my life. Rewind in the sense of trying to right things that were wrong in the past (redeem might be an operative word here) and replay it in the sense of giving things new beginnings. But…how?
There are those with whom I would like to be reconciled – but it’s been so long, perhaps they neither recognize the same need nor share the same desire? But at a fundamental level – I suppose that’s really not what matters – what matters is what I can say, what I can do, to do my part and if it’s not reciprocated, I can move on.
Life has been very interesting lately if for no other reason than the fact that it feels as though I am crawling on hands and knees with a flashlight in my mouth to barely and clumsily see what’s before me.
